Confuse about my own feeling

Sejak kebalakangan nie, time2 blogwalking selalu terbaca entry yang cakap blog yang macam diary 2 x besh. Ari nie nak tulis jugak macam diary. Nak emo sikit. Hati kurang senang. Macam title kat atas 2.. =)

Sebelum menulis entry ni, sempat lagi blogwalking. 1st pegi kat blog You(housemate). entry dia taking risk is worth 2 memang menarik hati pada malam yang dingin ni. Malam ni i'll taking risk to expose my feeling. Ye la. hati da get involve in life. huh. sebenarnya, entah da berapa lama da aku stalk sorang budak ni. bukan stalk jugak la, boleh dikatakan mengkaji jugak. sebab nak mengkaji is because from the first time i saw her (its a her ok) i know she is in love with the him(same guy i've been in love for this while, when i mention 'while' is almost 1 year and 8 month now).

But when i ask about her, he say its his sister. hurm . i'll try to let him go. But my heart refused. i go with the flow. when i texted him, sometimes i just don't know what to hope for. sometimes he act as friend, sometimes he act like he care . sometimes its just get too confusing. 3 days ago he text me like he doesn't have anyone in his heart until i found

huhu... so sad .. did he fall for this girl? just too confuse.. now i do not know what should i feel. Confuse about my own feeling. as "to love is to risk not being in love in return."